Updated: Jan 20, 2021
It’s the end of another year (albeit a shitty year) and I find myself on the precipice of new yearnings and old regrets.
We all make New Years resolutions....as if 2021 will wash away our flaws and conditioning. Heal our traumas and hurts and suddenly we will be the perfect version of ourselves. The version we imagine.
I’m sure there are those people who decide and make it happen. Kudos to you! I am not one of you... I am the “resolution repeater.“ It stands to reason then, that I am also not dealing with my shit and hoping that next year will clean up my mess and all it’s new extensions.
Fortunately, it’s not all doom and gloom! I have many redeeming qualities, please believe, I could rabbit on about them but that’s not what this about.
After experiencing a beautiful, hysterical, miserable and enlightening spiritual awakening I have learned to acknowledge my spirit. Spirit wants more and I am called to change. Habitually, I am tempted write things like ”It won’t be easy” or “I will have to exercise will power” ....Meh, what a bloody cliche’.
This feels so much bigger than that. It feels like the logical next step. I have pondered the life I want. I have imagined the most beautiful second half to this incarnation. The fact is, it’s now crunch time.
Time to practice what I preach.